Wednesday, February 11
autumn, like grief, changes everything
Now that its over, I have nothing inside me. I am lost for words. Your plea for forgiveness has alleviated the torment that I have kept for so long. I am neither sorrowful nor delighted. Its like, I am holding a stack of undefined emotions, unfolding each and every letter slowly. Sometimes I wish I could be dragged on a little further. Probably till I find something that could stimulate my mind despite having a heavy heart. But pain is just pain afterall. I keep telling myself, what could be worse? Needless to say, I just want the inspiration to write again.
Shift. Maybe this is what I need right now. A shift from gloomy sentences to joyous passages. Time will tell, i guess. I shall let it be the judge for whatever emotions I may have. Also, releasing the feelings I've had for you.
Shifting...
Hello wonderful people! Having a sound sleep is almost impossible these days. And today a hardcore moodswing occured. I was all mad sad happy geli hati all in a day! Work was kinda shitty today because a staff actually made assumptions about Zara and I. You should have seen me then because I bet you could see anger sparking around me like an electric outline. Hahaha okay exaggeration. I swear to god I'll write her a nasty letter before I leave. But thank you Aneey and Zara for being there. I always know I can count on the two of you :)
ON A VERY IMPORTANT NOTE, I MIGHT BE CHANGING MY URL :D