Thursday, December 25
single lady
Hello darlingszx! Today Im in a very good mood. No, not because Santa delivered presents. Because Ive taken such a long time to make this decision, and nothings going to sway me. Finally, Ive made up my mind and its such an accomplishment. Just one more final move, and then its all up to fate to decide. I dont deserve someone who treats a relationship like tropical storms. Next time round, the knight's armour doesnt have to shine. It could be rusty for all I care.
Yes, I have been quite a wreck, feeling every mile with every step. But it took me quite a looooong while to realise that as every day went by and I thought about him every second and smiled, I knew that meeting him, knowing him and above all loving him is the biggest silver lining of a marshmallow cloud you can ever find.
Well I'd be lying if I say that I didnt think about him. But I'd be more than just honest if I say I didnt think about him all the time. Ah probably because Ive been busy with work. Plus being busy is good. It distracts me from anything and everything, although I have his picture pinned up at my desk. Stop rolling your eyes to heaven. Yes i know its pathetic, but Im already at the brink of stopping to run in circles. Theres nothing to this wing and a prayer situation. I became insane with long intervals of horrible insanity, but not anymore. I have come to see that this is all just a tremor, not an earthquake yet.
I know I cant change the whole scenario. What I can change is only my attachment to the wreckage. Eventhough I know more girls will continue to swoon over him, I'll walk away with a smile, because I count myself very very lucky to be the first he said those three words to, and having to dine in a 5 star hotel with him and allll.
Sigh.
To the boy I write poems for,
To the boy who possesses an undefinable charisma,
To the boy who gives me tropical butterflies in my tummy,
To the boy with a jaw-droppingly stunning and amazing smile,
To the boy who makes my day,
To the boy who pulled me with magnets in his lazy eyes,
Sayonarahhhhhhh.
Ok I feel so good now I can even finish up a bowl of fingernails soup if you ask me to. Tomorrow will be another working day with more documents to sign. I love my job. I love the people around me. Im loving life. Goodnight peoples.
PS: To Arif, sorry for being such a brat because I dont feel like doing the survey you asked me to. Im no longer in the mood to answer questions relating to that. But still, Id like to thank you for always being the friend whom I can confide in without a fear of disappointment, who always has healing tenderness for the hurt of my heart, comfort for my sorrow and cheer for my discouragement. Thank you so much for being there. If you break your gf's heart, I'll slap you.