Wednesday, November 26
gain what you've lost.
I miss my grandfather.
Since he passed away on the 3rd of May, life somehow changed.
People say, "You don't know what you've got until it suddenly disappears." But I have always cherised the moments with him because i know, that wise old man will one day disappear.
Sometimes at night before I go to bed, I will open the suitcase of memories and hark back to childhood times. He'd buy me a yo-yo and we'd play together despite his age. We'd eat ice cream together and his favourite will always be that red bean ice cream. Mine was paddle pop, but thats not the case. He'd playfully cane me when my mother scolds me. At times, when my mother has a cane in her left hand and would chase after me, I would hide behind my grandfather because it's he i seek protection from at times like this and he was always there to shield me from my mother's mighty cane. Also, as a kid, I loved watching WWF with him with the tv turned mute.
But things got worse and in spite of the times we've spent together, I had to spend my last moment with him by his hospital bed, watching him die in peace. At that time, my feelings ranged from simple grief to abandonment, fear, distrust and overwhelming anger that he's missing some of the most important events in my life. But as time goes on, I discovered that he's a wonderful person who deserves heaven, and not this cruel, sinful world. I hope he's doing fine up there. Perhaps right now as im typing, he's drinking heaven and earth green tea. Haha ok shataaap.
But i really miss him. I realised that I lost quite a lot this year. But I surely gained a lot of memories worth treasuring in my suitcase of memories.
On a side note, today is Aman's birthday. So, Happy 17th Birthday Aman! As always, I love your teeth(only) so umm, smile always! :)